ok here’s a new pinned since it’s been a while

hi im mercury/merc!

b. 1996
hrt 2018
on tumblr since 2011 u___u

ive changed my url a lot but ive been mercury since i first joined!

fun and useful facts for you all (subject to change):

  • my favorite band is cardiacs
  • my second favorite band is black dresses
  • in 2021 i illustrated the card “the hanged one” for the fat folks tarot deck
  • i met my fiancee on tumblr around 2013
  • current interests include gardening, psychopharmacology, entomology, ghosts, and ecology
  • i briefly went to animation school
  • i draw
  • i hate psychiatry as an institution but love psychology as a field of study
  • i’m not much of a Fandom Person at this point but i like spiderverse and sayer podcast
  • i have a dissociative disorder/am a bunch of Guys who overlap in different ways and sometimes i talk about this; i used to talk about this publicly in detail more often but im a bit cagier with it now
  • i sometimes discuss drug use; i try to tag for more detailed posts but i might miss some
  • ive probably tried more research chemicals than you

im a bit more shy about posting pictures of myself than i used to be but here’s what i look like irl… more info on my selfies here

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Karolina Matyjaszkowicz — Comets and Unicorns (acrylic on canvas 2020)

making a new post, disconnected from the anon hate b/c that's just depressing! hiii im drowning in debt!

Hiiii! I'm literally drowning in credit card debt! I'm a disabled Black person, and I'm not able to hold a traditional job. I have a bit of credit card/medical debt I need help with, and I wonder if anyone could lend a hand?

don't tag as dona/tions!

$305/$7,000

#drugs

people insisting that psychedelics are a waste of time/completely ineffective if you take abilify is interesting to me…. i dont have as intense trips as i would if i wasnt on it i am sure but i still enjoy tripping. i think people who say this commonly don’t smoke weed or use dissos when try trip (dissos makes psychedelics Very intense for me) but also i wonder if there’s a component of biological habituation, like, ive been on abilify since i think 2017 or longer. was talking to a friend who was asking if she should stop meds to try and trip and honestly imo if you are on a med that is not likely to give you serotonin syndrome in combination with psychs i would just take your meds as usual, accept that you might not trip balls but will probably still Have a Time, and dose higher next time if needed

but also low dose/low intensity trips are fun!!! you can go outside and be around people (sometimes) without feeling as scared and disoriented!!!

Remember that the right person will never get tired of you even in the worst times

No, they will! But they'll work through it, or walk away for a bit (i'm talking minutes to hours) and then come back.

People can love you and still need to get away from you for a bit. And there is nothing toxic about that — it's good, in fact. It helps remind everyone involved that everyone has boundaries, and everyone needs time to themselves.

It's okay. Calm down before you talk about something that made you angry while your loved one is sick. Be sure of what made you mad so you can discuss it together.

Love isn't a one-way street, and it's something that takes work. Part of that work is knowing when you need to step away.

you will have a much healthier relationship with your own mental health if you stop seeing disorders as essential modes of being that you fall into or don't and treat them instead as models through which to view your experiences and put exactly as much stock in as you find they have useful explanatory power to you

stop thinking 'am i X' and instead ask 'is it useful to me to understand my behaviour Y in terms of X'

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this is so grim to me tbh and i wish more people talked about ways to make exercise and socialization easier for people who struggle with them instead of "just dont do it"

i wish we could move beyond discussions of “coping mechanisms” bc frankly getting outside isnt just something you do to “cope” its something you do to make your life better. which is a different thing?

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this is so grim to me tbh and i wish more people talked about ways to make exercise and socialization easier for people who struggle with them instead of “just dont do it”

addicts and alchoholics deserve compassion and respect no matter where they are on their journey. it is baffling to me that people who are not experiencing addiction find it appropriate to dehumanize or make jokes about people who are forced to self medicate by a world that has failed to hold and care for them properly

banning pornography will not stop people from horny posting on your website but instead all the horny posts will now be about how someone wants to be a 2008 Volvo and have a butch mechanic change their oil and stuff like that

august 4, 2023

hey i'm a homeless broke trans "guy" who got taken advantage of by a cash app scammer who ended up getting My shit deleted. cash app was the main way i received money. if you really want details please dm me. otherwise i would really appreciate donations to my ven (@/pisshet, 8184 security code or just bypass it at the bottom of the screen) or my paypl.

i can do quick sketches for money if you want. if i still owe you a drawing PLEASE let me know-- my memory hasn't been working well and i've deleted a lot of old messages out of shame and anxiety. i will do what i told you i would

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